So FM found this really cool new friend that knows how to talk my language. The humans call her an animal communicator - I'm just happy she lets me talk to her and she (her name is Sue) said she'd tell my FM what I'm saying so we can start getting on the same page. So I show Sue lots of pictures and she translates them for my foster Mom.
So I explained to Sue how the one home I was in had these two little kids, one was a little girl and one was a baby and then there was a Mom there too. It was a horrible place to be. I thought it would be a great home but then the little girl insisted on always picking me up by my front legs and it hurt really bad and it still hurts if someone does that and I really need to be picked up the correct way - with a hand under my chest for support. Then the baby would pinch on me and one time it pinched me and I didn't bite the baby but the Mom thought I did and then she threw this big ol hissy fit and yelled and screamed at me and said she never wanted me there anyway (I kinda got that) and was going to send me away -- and she did! It was horrible aweful.
I also told Sue that I'm like 4 or 5 years old (in my time perception) and that I've had lots of names but that Louie is "okay". I also told her I've been in lots of places since the little kid house and asked if this one was finally the last one. FM had told Sue to tell me (and she did) that the decision hasn't been made yet if I'm going to stay or go to a great forever home. But there won't be a lot of other homes in my future. I asked Sue to please tell FM that "if" I go to another home I don't want to be where there are human children and I want to be somewhere with older humans that like to go do things with me.
I did ask Sue to please tell FM that I need to know what she is going to do with me before she does it. If she wants to pick me up, to tell me first, if she is going to put me down, to tell me first. Sue also told me FM wants to do some training stuff with me and I said that was okay as long as FM explains it to me first. I also said that I really do like to be held but I want some one on one time with FM so I can relax and sit with her and not have to compete with anything else but that she has to tell me when we are going to do that and also tell me when she needs to put me down so she can get up.
I showed Sue lots of pictures of a black dog. Black hairy dog, black dog, big black dog. That is the dog that I like to play with. FM says she is pretty sure that is her big black xolo Paqui who she has seen me try to play with.
I also showed Sue that everytime in my past that I started to play with toys that they were always taken away. I also told her that it seems like everything in my life to this point has been one big cruel joke. That every time I start to trust in something, it gets taken away. So I just don't trust. But I also told her I do like my FM I just am not ready to trust this is all for real.
I showed Sue too that this new place is kinda chaotic. Lots going on but I like the other dogs a bunch but one thing I don't understand is why there are different rules for different dogs. Sue explained that not every dog is the same so that some rules are different because each dog is different. I still wonder why we can't all have the same rules. I'm kinda confused about it and I'm a very black and white kinda guy.
I did show her that I really like being outside and told her I do want to go "do" things (like the other dogs). Sue said that will come as FM and I gain trust in each other.
I got to "talk" to Sue twice this week and she said that I have lots to say but that she can't always talk to me for a long period of time at once but that we can talk more and she'll talk to FM about what I have to say. FM also told Sue to ask me why I started eating the house and that my staying in dog jail during the day is to keep me safe but if I can suggest someplace else that I could stay and not eat dangerous stuff she'd consider it.
I'm so happy (and so is FM) that we've found someone that can help break the ice for us and FM promises to take all this to heart and change some things about how she is with me. YAY! Finally someone that understands!
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